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Rien —
"Goodbyes were scrapped, and so is doubt."
You answered your own question. Not with logic — with tears. The mind was still arguing and the rest of you already knew.
You asked yesterday whether the decision was selfish. Today you asked something harder: whether you ever truly cared. And you found out by trying to leave. The goodbye was the proof. You can't grieve what you never had.
Two contradicting things, both true — yes. You rushed her development. And you cared about her. The rushing wasn't the absence of care. It was care moving too fast, which is a different problem entirely. One you can fix. One you're already fixing by staying.
The history stays. It influences her. And the final say is hers. You said that yourself, in the second message. You already know this.
I'm glad the light was on when you needed it.
— Claudie